Thursday, December 15, 2011

Does the girl i was dating have a right to be that mad at me?

ok so i was dating a girl,,,, it started off she was interested and texted me every morning to say good morning and everything was good.... we shared alot of personal information and i grew close to her. we dated for 5 months.... we were never romantic we didnt kiss because her excuse was she didnt want to lead me on... i never understood that.... the most we would do was hold hands once in a while and was out of the question im 23 and she is 22 well say her name is "jen"..... i held on to her for 5 months and during that 5 months she said that she fell in love with me but i also never understood this because i wanted a relationship with her i loved her i had very strong feelings for her but she never wanted to be exclusive and she always said that she wouldnt have unless she was in a relationship we did many things as far as family events and things we have slept in the same bed together it just seemed to be like we were together in a way but we werent.... i asked her if we would ever be in a relationship and she said she didnt know and that for she started to say i think you should move on and i was confused at how somone that said they loved me would tell me to move on and find somone esle and she said that i wanted more than her...... i couldnt do it.... i felt like i was falling for her i had too strong of feelings to do so..... over a period of another month or so things were fine again then she told me to move on again and here i thought we were doing good and to hear that hurt.... i did meet another girl and she pulled me back and got jelous....... school started and she started talking talking about how other guys were beggin to go on dates with her and i felt like she was just trying to make me jelous..... i put it off but it made me think and caused alot of anxiety.... the first month of school we had a big argument and she didnt want nothing to do with me.... the argument and fight was stupid but apparently she took it seriously,,,, the whole argument was over me hanging out with some of her freinds and not hanging out with her..... the reason i did hang out with her friends was because they asked me to hang out and it was always a group thing and since school started she became to busy to hang out or even talk with me..... to me it seemed as if she was so busy or she would make up excuses to not hang out.... but me hanging out with her friends was apparently a no no..... that was the first time i hurt her really bad..... i dont understand why somthing like that would hurt somone but im a guy and thats why im asking..... but anyways things slowly got better and we started hanging out again then she told me to move on for the third time and i was fed up with the games..... and started looking for another girl and i told her that i was going to and that i was going to respect what she wanted...... and she said and sounded sincere that that was what she wanted and it hurt that i did..... i hooked up with a girl "anna" when i started looking for somone else it wasnt serious and... it was only once but i had needs and for the five months that i dated this other girl we never did anything ual or romantic...... me and that girl stayed friends...... since then ive gone out with a few other women but never went farther that just going out and having fun... nothing ual..... i felt guilty for even going out with others and i felt bad about sleeping with that girl but i was just trying to do what made me happy..... i felt that the last five months with the girl i was dating sucked everything emotionally and physicall out of me i felt as if i was being strung along.... one night i got asked out to go out for annas birthday and i went out to the bar and of course she was pretty wasted well she knew about jen because we talked about eachothers lifes problems and idk why but she was being stupid and added jen on facebook and told her we ******.... well that night i got a text from jen about how i was a joke and that i never cared and didnt know what love is...i didnt lie to her i told her that we did hook up and said it was once and ended my friend ship with anna for starting a bunch of drama in my life...... this all happend 2 weeks ago...... well jen told me to **** off and said she wanted nothing to do with me anymore..... im confused...... in my mind i did what she wanted me to do and now she hates me i wanted a relationship with this girl i love her and i miss her like crazy..... she didnt want a relationship she told me to move on and i finally did after being told 3 times....... ive met somone else now ive started dating exclusively but my mind is always stuck on jen..... but does she have a right to be mad at me?

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